Friday, September 04, 2015

Nicole Nordeman-The Unmaking

The Story Behind the Song:
What can I build for God?
I’ve spent my life asking this.
Maybe it’s because I misunderstood what God wanted when I was young, or maybe it’s my own pride and ambition, or maybe somewhere in my heart I still secretly suspect that God measures and rates and reviews my spiritual accomplishments. I don’t even know what “spiritual accomplishments” actually means. Maybe I still want to have “something to show” for all this work I’ve done along the journey. So I want to build something for God. I’d like for it to be tall and impressive and for a whole bunch of people to take notice. Especially God.
Not too long ago, I heard a pastor friend of mine named Andrew Arndt say this, “God longs for resurrection in us…but first we have to go through some measure of unmaking.”
Unmaking? That sounded like the opposite of what I’d been trying to accomplish spiritually for years. I sat with those words for a long time.
Before things in our lives can be resurrected and given new life, certain things must die. Before beauty blooms in spring, roots must do the hard work under the hard frozen soil of winter. Before you renovate and re-build, you tear down the parts of the structure that are weak or damaged or dangerous.
Before we make, we must unmake.
This didn’t resonate with my ongoing “build something big for God” obsession. It didn’t resonate because that’s never been what God wants. It’s what we want. To make God in our own image, so that people might stop and stare and marvel at our awesomeness. I mean God’s awesomeness.
Let me tell you where God wanted to meet me these past several years.
On a pile of rubble.
He wanted to sit with me in the silence and dust, after the wrecking ball, and put his arms around me for a while. He asked for vulnerability. And for honesty. I was embarrassed about the rubble and started to explain right away. He didn’t want to hear my plans for improvement. He had no interest in my blueprints. He wanted to hold hands and dry my tears. To help me understand that the rubble is where we have to start. The unmaking is first. We sat there for a long, long time until I started to get it.
It’s hard still. I’m so performance oriented. As a performer, that stands to reason, I guess. But I’m finding that the more willing I am to be honest about the broken parts of my life that are being unmade, and not necessarily shined up for presentation, the more likely I am to build something that matters. Stacking up these stones again to build what God has really been asking for all along…an altar.
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Sharing from my heart:

I love worship music and listen to it every night while I fall asleep and I wake up to it each morning.  It starts my day off with a peaceful heart and mind, I love it.  I'm always searching for new songs that speak to me and feed my spirit, with The Unmaking I've found new songs to add to my collection. I was surprised there were only 6 songs on the whole CD but once I listened to them I realized that was all she needed.  I hope you enjoy this CD as much as I am and I hope if brings peace, comfort and hope to those that need it.  I just returned from my Grandma's funeral in Colorado and the song Not To Us and Love You More have really given me comfort while I'm grieving.
 Slow Down reminded me of my children especially when she says "Don't roll your eyes at me" and it just talks about how fast our children grow up and are gone before we know what happened.  Makenzie is about to get her driver's permit, how did this happen?  My sweet little bundle from South Korea is almost a full grown woman and my little guy is taller and bigger than me.  Take the time to enjoy these days and Slow Down like the song says!

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